Closer than I thought

Driving to work this morning I was felt kinda blah. My brain was on overload with all the things I had (and wanted) to do, and I started feeling like I was doing lots of things, and none of them well.

When motherhood is on pointe, I’m less prepared for business meetings. When dinner is homemade and healthy, I end up skipping a workout. When I meet my friends for wine, I miss quality time with my husband. Such is life, and it’s a natural give and take. But sometimes it’s just like MEH…I have 10 pots on the proverbial stove, and nothing ready to eat.

So anyway I’m driving, and stewing, as is my style. Trying to figure out how to put all the things into nice little boxes. And I flash back to watching Lila put together a puzzle yesterday.

She’s too little to understand what a puzzle is, and gets no more satisfaction from having one put together appropriately than can be expected from a toddler. But watching her try to place the oversized wooden pieces into their proper places is amazing. She finds such joy in studying them, trying them in different locations, and then exuberantly applauding for herself when she gets one in the semi-correct location (or gets distracted and throws it at the dog).

She doesn’t care about having everything perfectly lined up or finished, she simply delights in the process. She takes the experience at face value, embracing the fun, the challenge and the lesson.

So maybe I need to take a step back and approach my own life puzzles with this same attitude of determination and mindfulness.

Things are never going to all magically fall into their assigned slots, ever. And the more I make that perfectly finished puzzle my goal, the longer I’ll remain frustrated. So instead of trying to fix everything I’m working on, I think I need to reevaluate what I’m trying to achieve in all of this.

If it’s perfection, I’m doomed. But if it’s to learn and enjoy myself, I’m closer than I thought.

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2 thoughts on “Closer than I thought

  1. Great Post! Needed this one today as I am still up getting more things on my list of things to do feeling like the list won’t end until Christmas comes and exhausted at the thought of it. : )

  2. Clarity and calm in the midst of chaos. How’d you get to be so wise? xx   From: (mis)adventures To: harrietmeador@yahoo.com Sent: Monday, December 7, 2015 10:36 PM Subject: [New post] 4625 #yiv1094736547 a:hover {color:red;}#yiv1094736547 a {text-decoration:none;color:#0088cc;}#yiv1094736547 a.yiv1094736547primaryactionlink:link, #yiv1094736547 a.yiv1094736547primaryactionlink:visited {background-color:#2585B2;color:#fff;}#yiv1094736547 a.yiv1094736547primaryactionlink:hover, #yiv1094736547 a.yiv1094736547primaryactionlink:active {background-color:#11729E;color:#fff;}#yiv1094736547 WordPress.com | Jessica T posted: “Driving to work this morning I was felt kinda blah. My brain was on overload with all the things I had (and wanted) to do, and I started feeling like I was doing lots of things, and none of them well.When motherhood is on pointe, I’m less prepared for b” | |

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