Change the world and have one hell of a good time.

I’ve been thinking more and more about closing up this blog for a bit. Not ending it – but going on a break.

It’s been seven years of history and thoughts here. An amazing relic to revist, sometimes embarrassing, sometimes hysterical. It’s been a good ride, but more and more of me needs to write new and more challenging things, in different ways. I’ve never made this a distinct destination, and accordingly, it’s become a blend of a journal, professional writing, miscellaneous lists, recipes and rants. Which I guess, in a way, defines a perfectly authentic diary.

I love writing more than almost anything, and not just putting thoughts into words; it’s the connections and sharing with others that really energizes me. There are times I can’t wait to write because I know how certain people will react or share in response. I’ve also met some cool strangers here. And I’m so thankful for everyone who’s supported my writing…by reading, kind words and funny comments. Every single time I get a response I’m elated, because it makes me feel like I’m doing something right.

But, there’s a pressure with knowing so many of the people who read your writing. To make it good, to not be too raw, to not expose the parts of you that might makes others uncomfortable. Not out of fear of judgment; more from a place of apprehension in blending worlds. Will they still like me if they knew ____?

In a way, it’s a relief to share parts of yourself that are normally hidden–but it’s also the scariest thing ever. If I’m going off the high dive for the first time, I might want to do it alone, not in front of a crowd.

Over the past few weeks (months?) I’ve felt a greater need to write for my own sanity, to express some hard things and uncomfortable feelings, so I’ve started composing lengthy, disorganized emails to my oldest (and incredibly understanding) friend. We often remark that as two very different aspiring writers, we should just publish the notes, cards and emails we’ve been exchanging since we were 13, and then we’d have our masterpiece.

I think I’m on the verge of starting something new, and I know I’ll share it eventually.

Until I figure that out, there’s this awesome quote: “I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time.  Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.” -E.B. White

 

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6 thoughts on “Change the world and have one hell of a good time.

  1. Jess, I look forward to your blogs as they’re entertaining and provide wonderful insights into your life. If you need a break, I’ll certainly understand, But please make it a short break. Love you, Dad

  2. I’ll miss your posts, and hope they’ll resume at some point……. but it sounds like something else might be brewing! love you (and your words), mom xo

  3. Hi Jess, good for you for taking a needed break. I will miss your stories and musings though and hope you’ll be back at some point. Love you, Aunt Diane

  4. I haven’t commented before though I have been following your blog for some time. I feel compelled now to say thank you for sharing your thoughts and exploits. It has been great fun to share your journey and I wish you the best of luck in your next adventure.

  5. Whatever you’re on the verge of, I’m sure it will be brilliant.

    Selfishly, I hope you don’t stay away too long. We need people like you putting thoughts into words and actions. It’s what does change the world.

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